It has been awhile since we have updated our neuro-reorg and K's progress. I think T would agree, that while we are seeing progress in some areas, the roller coaster ride continues and i just want to jump off at time. K on occasion has been able to calm herself more interdependently, and amazingly, she has stopped stinkin from what we imagine was excess fight or flight chemicals in her body. We did go to Disney in November and expected the worst. We were super impressed that she held it together most of the trip. Unfortunately, when we got home, we found out that she wasn't doing as well as we thought during the trip. She had basically held everything in to be the model "good girl", but she was suffering something awful on the inside the duration. Her favorite parts of Disney, watching cartoons at night and the one day we were able to hang out around the hotel in the pool. Not exactly a proud parenting moment when we realized what she had gone through internally while we were on the trip.
Her EMDR therapy to help deal with the trauma that was coming out as a result of the neuro-reorg was a bust however. With no memories to go on, we were able to thread some positive images in her head and talk a little about her eating issues, but the more serious stuff was untouched. Our therapist recommended a new therapist that deals almost exclusively with children and trauma. Last week, we had an intake appointment with her and off loaded a phone book size file on our K. From what we told her, her impression is that K's trauma is playing over and over like a broken record in her brain that she can't process to move past. Because of this, it will continue to come out in her behaviors until she has the tool to start processing it. Neuro-reorg continues to build connections in her brain that were missed as part of her development, however it doesn't stop when this broken record starts playing. We will be waiting for the two therapists to get together, but it sounds like we are going to have to back off the neuro-reorg until we can get "unstuck" with the trauma side of things. Never a dull moment! Looking forward to our appointment this week and praying this direction in the maze will lead us in the direction of the cheese and not towards another dead end.
