Change I Control vs Change Out of Control

I was quite proud of myself as my 2009 resolution was to embark on some massive changes in the "business as usual" trap we all tend to find ourselves in once our routines are established. I marked this new way of thinking by changing grocery stores which resulted in a significant reduction in my weekly grocery bill, rethinking some of the house work and what was important, and breaking ties with all my "extra" curricular activities that were occupying much of my "free" time with little or no reward. Mid 2009, I was relishing in my success and the positive changes that I had made when it seemed the ball I had started rolling down the hill had taken off on its own. While I had made controlled decisions in the changes I made during the first part of the year, changes clearly out of my control began to snowball. Though some of the changes were seemingly small, they all managed to shake the little biosphere where I live my day to day life and combined have really pulled the rug out from under me. Neighbors we have know for 10 years moving, both our priests leaving, realizing that my age and lack of exercise is really creeping up on me, being rear ended, re-defining an assistance schedule that would have helped countless people, loosing a work associate that I relied heavily upon, redefining seemingly stable relationships. Even something as simple as a camping trip seems born of chaos and out of my control at this point. My capacity for embracing change has really reached its limit. Change, whether by my initiation or out of my control has touched every facet of my life at this point. Looking ahead, it looks to me that this change is marking more of the beginning than an end.